KN.E.R.D. June 16, 2005
Posted by vollenda in : General , add a commentKnee Enforced Rest Day…Yes, I know, I’m a geek. This winter I started using N.E.R.D. for Nature Enforced Rest Day when I couldn't ride because of the insane amounts of rain we had here in SoCal. I was feeling guilty about not being on the bike and I finally had to come to terms with the fact that sometimes outside forces mess with my schedule. Hence NERDs. 
This morning I had to come to terms with the fact that my knee is now dictating my schedule instead of the other way around. So I am now going to have KNERDs for the next few days.
Of course I’m not happy about it. I took the bus to work this morning and walked the mile from the bus stop to work (with my knee wrapped). And started crying. Not because it hurt. I don’t really know why. I know I have a fear that I’ll gain the weight that I lost back. Or that I’ll revert to my old lazy ways. I really enjoy cycling and running. And I’m starting to enjoy swimming too, yeah! But I also know that I use working out as a way to calm me, get rid of stress and anxiety and sadness/depression. The past six weeks have been a little difficult with the loss of a friendship (and guilt because of it) and work stress. Now working out is adding stress instead of alleviating it. Maybe it just that I’m tired. Luckily, a coworker is going to give me a ride home tonight so I don’t have to walk back to the bus stop. Same schedule tomorrow. My mom is going on vacation next week and she’s leaving me her car to use so that will help too. She’s going to Cancun. What I wouldn’t give for a few days of sun and sand…